God in His loving kindness and mercy often uses many afflictions and trials to draw us to Him. He knows what is best for us and what trials it will take for us to possibly accept His loving call. Those trials will either humble us and soften our hearts to His love, or harden our hearts out of our own choice to rebel and walk away from Him.
God sees and knows each and every one of our hearts better than we know it ourselves, for He created it. Isaiah 44:24, “Thus saith the LORD, thy redeemer, and he that formed thee from the womb, I am the LORD that maketh all things; that stretcheth forth the heavens alone; that spreadeth abroad the earth by myself;”
God sees all that we have been through, the highs and the lows, nothing is hidden from Him. For even the “secret” things are not hidden from God.
God has chosen what period of earth’s history and what family we should be born into and in what part of the world that should happen. The choices He has made and is continuing to make are only for our good and for our salvations sake, the salvation of others, and for His glory’s sake.
With all of this said, I think back on the life that God has so graciously blessed me to have. The family I was born into, my parents teaching me about Jesus and praying with us at a young age and the church I was born and raised in; for this foundation set me up to learn the truth. I also thank the Lord for the trials the Lord allowed and used in my life to draw me to Him.
It grieves my heart to think, that if it wasn’t for the many trials, I may have never wanted to know my Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. I thank God for my family and the many people that He has brought in and out of my life over the years.
I had a blessed childhood and a lot of wholesome fun, and many wonderful memories. I was sheltered and protected from many evil influences throughout my childhood, because of God’s mercy and the loving parents He gave me. I was blessed to learn many lessons early on and many of those lessons came because my sweet momma struggled with her health keeping her bed bound a majority of the time.
It was the many health trials, surgeries, and hospital stays over the years that weighed heavy on my heart along with the other trials that came with it. I love my mom and as a kid I didn’t know how to handle seeing her struggle nor did I know how to speak about it. I knew that God never gives us more than we could handle, and I knew He was there with us. But I shoved down most of what I felt and I put my focus and energy into basketball and sports. I put a lot of pressure on my own shoulders and being the oldest kid, I wanted to be strong for my brothers and dad. My dad’s load was heavy, and he was doing so much for us. I wanted to be positive and hold myself together, be strong for others.
After high school, I soon came to the realization that basketball was more than a sport to me. It was one of the ways I coped with the stresses of life. I am so thankful for the many lessons that I learned through it and the many relationships built but I didn’t want to let it go. It took me a long time to transition out of how to live life without it.
As I was learning what life was without sports and high school; I was meeting new people, making new friends, having a ton of fun and trying to figure out this new stage of life. I took a few college classes at our local community college, started nutritional therapy schooling, and even dated for a little bit. I moved out for the first time, I started my own business, I went to Massage Therapy School, had and made many great memories. Life was busy and I was having fun. I was working and taking things one day at a time, trying to figure it all out.
It was also during these times that new age healing was creeping more and more into my life, as well as my families. Growing up I had gone to a few different ladies that did bio resonance testing and other methods where it was by muscle testing and certain frequencies that certain supplements, homeopathic remedies, and recommendations were made and given. I had received acupuncture before and when needed went to an alternative doctor that used muscle testing as his main source for finding answers to health issues. So I was very open and comfortable with “alternative” medicine.
I don’t remember the exact timeline, but while getting into emotion code (and body code), which I will talk about later on, I also started to receive other new age work and help a practitioner with a new age technique as well.
It was also during all of this fun, busyness, and new learning that my health started to decline more and more, physically and mentally. I also decided to go to massage school to better equip myself with anatomy for this technique and to also help with my nutrition business. I also continued to have many big waves of sadness and depression, and physically I was tired all the time.
Through the trials; I was trying to figure out why I felt the way I did. Why I struggled with properly communicating things that were hard in life and the things I was struggling with.
I had so much to be thankful for, so I didn’t understand why I was so often feeling the way I was, not just physically but mentally. I was really blessed and I knew how blessed I was to have the life I did, but there was a lot of hurt and sadness that I didn’t know how to deal with. This included shame and guilt from many past mistakes that I had made. There was something I was longing for that I couldn’t quite pin point or understand.
After moving out for the first time (which was during the same time that I was going to massage school) I ended up moving home shortly after because I had a bad spurt mentally and spiritually. I spent almost all of the month of December in my parents basement sleeping and binge watching tv shows, and as typical no one knew but my family. I would just miss out on fun and hanging out with my friends for a few weeks and then get back to life never sharing with anyone why I wasn’t around for a little bit. It was a continual cycle. On the outside I was bubbly and super positive, (which was very genuine in many ways) but I was also struggling and didn’t want that to show.
Going back just a bit, before these new age techniques were introduced into my life, the personal health issues I had and the health issues my mom and family struggled with over the years was a huge reason I had so much interest in learning about holistic health and nutrition; I had a passion for it. I also had a very big opposition to Big Pharma and their push to hand out drugs to cover up symptoms, rather than treat the root cause. I saw the many blessings of modern healthcare, but also the corruption and it bothered me.
I had always had a love for holistic health and nutrition, and after graduating as Nutritional Therapy Practitioner, I wanted to use the bits of holistic health knowledge I had learned growing up and in nutritional therapy school to benefit others and my own health. I had started my own business and I was very passionate and excited to share these truths of nutritional wisdom with anyone that would let me talk about it! I wanted people to experience the wonderful changes that could come by simply changing their diet and lifestyle! And I still do to this day 😉
As I started to see more and more clients, there were certain patterns that I was starting to notice. During many of my sessions most of our conversation was spent speaking about those really tough things they had been through and were going through. The common source of their struggles with food and health stemmed from these many trials in their life. Or the struggles that kept them from being able to stick to making continuous healthy choices in their life were often because of many underlying reasons.
This really made me sad and made me think. I knew that I didn’t have the answers that they needed, and that bothered me. I knew I could do my best to help and encourage them in certain aspects of their life when it came to health and lifestyle, and I could provide a listening ear, but I knew at that time there was no training I had received or research I could do that could help them with the emotional, mental, spiritual struggles and pains that they were going through. And it happened to be, that the same answers they needed and were looking for, were the ones I was searching for myself. I saw the many struggles in life, the passed down sinful patterns through generations in families, I saw the things my family and friends had been through and I wanted to help. I wanted desperately to help them heal and I didn’t know how.
My personal mental, emotional, and physical health struggles and questions led me to research more online, look to self help books and articles, learn more into nutrition, and to also see many different practitioners and body workers (many who at the time I didn’t realize were new age and incorporated new age techniques like muscle testing, chakra balancing, etc.) I took and tried hundreds of different supplements and tried many different strict “health regiments.” Some things would seem to help for a little bit, but then something else seemed to get worse or “come up.” I always seemed to be “detoxing” or “peeling back another layer” that was supposedly getting me one step closer to the source or root of what was causing it all. It was a constant and continual never-ending and unsatisfying cycle. I was so desperate for answers! And I was willing to spend as much money as my budget allowed. It consumed the majority of my thoughts and time. I wanted answers and I didn’t know how to get them.
After seeing endless practitioners and taking hundreds of supplements, I ended up getting involved with something specifically called “Emotion Code” and “Body Code.” Somebody I love brought it to my attention that there was a lady in Washington State doing this specific work “distantly” (meaning she would work on me while I was in Michigan, even though she was in Washington. I didn’t have to be on the phone with her or anything, she would test – muscle test – what “came up” after she was done. We will talk further about this later). This technique promised positive outcomes like physical healing, increased financial prosperity, mental and emotional healing in a very simply, easy and affordable way. Whatever someone was looking for, emotion code and body code seemed to be the “solution.” After seeing the many testimonies and doing some research into it myself, I started having it done on myself regularly and when something was going on physically or mentally I would instantly get this work done.
I distinctly remember one time when I had bumped into someone from my past; that next day I started having major stomach pain and diarrhea. I instantly went and got emotion code done, and what “came up” were emotions related to this person and to the time period in which this person was a big part of my life. After received emotion code, it got better immediately and my stomach issues went almost completely away not too long after; I thought it was absolutely amazing.
I started learning to do it myself, started practicing muscle testing and mainly worked on myself, but then started to also work on family and friends and during this time, and it took off from there. I was sold. I read the emotion code book, got certified in this training and transitioned my nutritional business to be mainly focused on the “emotional/spiritual” side of things using this technique because I thought I now had the “answers” my clients had been needing.
You’re probably thinking to yourself, what is “Emotion Code” or “Body Code”? Not all of these “emotional healings” or “energy healings” go by this specific name, but it was the name of training I received. Both of these are explained as the process of finding and releasing “trapped” emotions in your body by using muscle testing (applied kinesiology) and a magnet to release these emotions through “Jesus Christ” or a “higher power” if you didn’t believe in Jesus. This could be done whether the person was there in the same room or across the country, under “the science” of Quantum Physics. We were taught to believe that emotions could be from past emotional traumas, generational traumas, or really from any specific incident in a person’s life that could have caused their body to “hold on” or “trap” an emotion. And those emotions and traumas could get trapped anywhere in the body and be the reason for many reoccurring bad habits (sins – though it wasn’t referred to as sin), any number of health issues, food allergies, emotional and physical pains, generational curses, etc. And it was taught that through muscle testing, I (or anyone that received the proper training or saw an emotion code practitioner) could access the subconscious mind to get these hidden answers. This “healing” was so inviting and enticing because you not only could get to the root cause of something right away, but you could also receive healing instantly! I was ALL over that. And all you needed was a magnet and the ability to muscle test. I thought that I had finally found the answers that all my clients and so many hurting people, most especially my loved ones were needing and looking for. I was so excited and exhilarated.
Once I started doing emotion code on my clients, my schedule filled up quick. Surely justifying and giving me (what I thought was a great thing at the time) a “sign” that this was the right direction to go. Especially, when the people that showed the most interest were those that said they were Christians.
I do remember doubting if this technique was legitimate at many points and had many situations where God was trying to warn me. And praise God, He used those same situations to later remind me and help me to get out of this scary path I was on, yet I was enticed and lured in. I would often go to my family with concerns, and God used them and spoke through them many times to caution me.
As more trials happened in my life, my dependence on wanting to be healed through alternative and new age methods grew, and the process got harder and more confusing. I was determined that I could get my food allergies and many emotional issues healed through these methods. I couldn’t distinguish where God’s hand was. My earthly flesh and carnal mind could see all of those things about my life that I wanted to change and CHANGE NOW, and had hope that things could be different. In my inability to control the people and hard situations in life, I tried to gain control through trying to take means into my own hands. Romans 8:6-8, “For to be carnally minded is death; but to be spiritually minded is life and peace. Because the carnal mind is enmity against God: for it is not subject in the law of God, neither indeed can be. So then they that are in the flesh cannot please God.”
As I was continuing to use emotion code and see other doctors and practitioners that were involved in very similar methods, the more physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual symptoms seemed to creep in. I had never felt so empowered at first, but that faded quickly and turned into feeling more alone than I had ever felt before. I was becoming more fearful in life and was beyond anxious at all times, I started to have terrible nightmares and depressed thoughts became more frequent and whenever it seemed to especially creep up, it was with more intensity every time. Many times while driving I considered the idea of turning my car into a tree, or into the oncoming lane of traffic. I knew something wasn’t right with how mentally terrible I felt. I was at a place that I never ever wanted to go back to. I was completely lost.
It became so hard for me to even think straight; I was completely and utterly confused. I went from having this amazing “intuitive” ability to not being able to make the simplest of decisions. 1 Corinthians 14:33 – “For God is not the author of confusion, but of peace…” I remember feeling like my mind was constantly buzzing and my eyes felt like they were bugged out. It felt like I was on some sort of drug and that I couldn’t get my mind to settle down or relax. All of this was so scary. I did not like feeling the way I did; it was horrible.
I truly thought throughout the whole process (with a lingering shame and conviction of the Holy Spirit), in my ignorance thought I was doing this work truly through the power of Jesus Christ. I always prayed before doing any work, but the god that the inventor of emotion code followed and the god I was doing this work through was not the same as the one I follow today. This was not the true Jesus Christ, this was a different “Jesus.” 2 Corinthians 11:4, “For if he that cometh preacheth another Jesus, whom we have not preached, or if ye receive another spirit, which ye have not received, or another gospel, which ye have not accepted, ye might well bear with him.”
Without a knowledge of God’s Word, and an ignorance to Satan’s devices, Dr. Bradley Nelson (creator and founder of Emotion Code and Body Code) made this technique so enticing. For he seemed to be saying and giving many of the answers to everything I was hoping for, healing of the heart. Dr. Nelson testified of many receiving healing, I witnessed him over video successfully muscle testing and many openly speaking about the healing they instantly felt, etc. And after I started doing this work on myself and others, I too many times felt and witnessed, “healing” happened. There were very good feelings that were produced, many tears were often shed and many answers that were revealed to me that clients had never told anyone before..it all seemed truly amazing, but these “healings” were not produced through Jesus Christ, and these answers were not revealed by God Almighty, but rather through satan and his demons. See “Are all miracles and supernatural occurrences from God of the Bible?” “Can Satan perform miracles?”
This work was a form of demonic healing, covered up by false light.
This is proof of how the devil can be so smooth and deceitful even using God’s name in ways He wouldn’t actually approve. 2 Corinthians 11:14, “And no marvel; for Satan himself is transformed into an angel of light.” I was trying to fit this “Godly” form of healing into the Bible but later found out I never could. I came to learn that demons communicate with each other and can give accurate answers especially when someone is open to be influenced and easy to believe their cunning ways. For they know the patterns of mankind better than we know them, for they have been alive before Adam and Eve were alive. And therefore they also know the patterns, traumas, and personalities of our past loved ones as well. So it’s very easy for them to give answers and produce “healings” that appear miraculous to us, right at a time when we are not only searching for answers in any new age work.
Through the trials I had been dealt in life and the many questions I had, instead of fully surrendering to God and looking to His Holy Scriptures, I looked to self-improvement and healing through the flesh. I wanted to control and change the situation, circumstance, and my feelings instantly. I thought I could fix and heal old memories, traumas, hard trials, and passed down generational issues through emotion code and seeing other doctors and practitioners. I thought they would be the answer to all of my struggles and hard times. Oh, was I ever wrong, and praise God for that!
I knew that I couldn’t control outcomes and that I didn’t have all the answers, and that it was simply up to God. But at the same time, my actions and thoughts clearly showed that simply trusting in God and in His beautiful and divine timing just wasn’t good enough for me. I wanted to see and believe that God was answering my “prayers” by introducing these exciting ways of “healing” to help me. The enemy convinced me that my issues seemed too big for God to heal. The more I ignored that conviction and heeding of the Holy Spirit, the harder it was to make even the simplest of decisions, many decisions were made by my feelings and using muscle testing. I started to incorporate muscle testing into every facet of my life. It got so bad that for a little bit even when I would get to a stoplight or a stop sign, I would sometimes muscle test if I should go to the left or to the right. I know, scary!
It grieves me thinking back to how much positive (to me at the time) influence there was from people, majority being proclaimed Christians, social media, and books around me that made it seem like this was a path that was totally okay, and one that I should be proud of. Sure, there was hesitancy from some, and there were even many times I would experience shame when trying to explain what I did to someone, but overall I had a lot of support and I was often affirmed by others that the path I was taking was to be praised and encouraged. Without understanding what God laid out in the beautiful book of life, the Bible, the world made it appear like I had it figured out and in my ignorance I often wondered how could so many not get it or not want to understand and utilize such an amazing tool! I even thought that maybe this is what God had planned for me to do with my life, to educate and teach people how to understand the benefits and aspects of this type of work and healing.
(And praise be to God, for what Satan meant to do me and others harm, God is using for His good and glory! Through my own personal experience, I get to share and lovingly warn others about the demonic nature of this type of work, and Satan’s cunning and deceitful devises.)
I had never opened my dust covered Bible to see what God said about this type of teaching, nor had I barely opened it to see what God said at all. By the grace of God and the Holy Spirit convicting and guiding, and having parents that I could express my doubts and concerns to, the decision was made that a large part of my current hardships MUST be because of the work I was doing.
By God’s grace, almost overnight it came to a point that my schedule was no longer full. Actually, it became dead. My dad helped me get rid of these books, I stopped seeing clients, and soon left town.
After I stopped doing Emotion Code, I was still battling many things, still had many questions, but at least I did know that I needed to be done with emotion code. I soon came to the decision that going to live in the state of Minnesota for the summer would be best. Many of my friends were moving on in their lives and many were getting married. And many kids my age from my church and family were in Minnesota, so the opportunity came and I snatched it up.
I got a job that I loved and it was the first time I didn’t live by my immediate family. I ended up staying in Minnesota for longer than the summer, and really had a good time. In all of my continued fun and busyness, I was still distracting myself and selfishly running away from many things I didn’t want to face. Even though I went to MN to get away, it was one of the best things that could have happened. I went to MN in hopes of meeting someone, get married and live happily ever after. After not finding the answers in new age, I turned all the more to the hope that God would bring a man into my life. I am so thankful that it didn’t work out that way. God had better plans.
While this was all happening, my younger brother was coming to the saving knowledge and power of Jesus Christ. Every time I would visit home, I got to spend time with him. I could see the extreme changes that were happening in his character, actions and demeanor. We got to have a lot of good conversations. I saw who he was before, and now saw this new and changed person. I wanted to have what he had found. He had true peace. He was so different, good different and I wanted what he had. He had Jesus Christ.
I lived a life free from drinking, smoking, and went to church every Sunday. On the outside I looked like that “good church girl.” I truly was trying as best as I knew how to be a good Christian and person (that’s exactly it, I was trying on my own strength to be and do good*) but inside I was morally wasting away and burdened of my sins. I watched terrible wicked movies, listened to bad music, fell into swearing for time, had lustful thoughts and desires, read fictional romance novels and other fictional books, was very selfish, held a lot of un-forgiveness and was very proud. I was addicted to certain forms of healing, I idolized marriage, health, what people perceived of me and the list goes on. I would grieve my sin, but never actually repented and turned away from those known sins.
After a weekend trip to the Upper Peninsula, with one of my roommates, just outside of my hometown a car lost control on black ice and hit us. My roommates car was totaled, we both blacked out quick, I believe, but by the grace and mercy of God everyone was okay.
Once the adrenaline and shock wore off, I was sore, bruised, and fell asleep sitting upright, and five days later I had a panic attack. I thought I was going to die. I was super thankful things weren’t worse. Everyone walked away and no one even needed to go to the ER. Thank you Lord. I spent the next 2 weeks in my parents basement, mostly sleeping and recovering. The Lord was already working in my heart, but it was this accident and time of recovering that He really used to draw me closer. He was opening my eyes and ears spiritually already, but as with any big or traumatic event they often cause us to more urgently ponder those important questions. And now I had the time between recovery at home and life away in Minnesota to do just that. I was always on the move, constantly going it seemed and this forced me to be still.
It scared me to realize that it could have been my time to die and I knew I would not have been rising with Christ to go to Heaven when He returned. My life was not His. I knew why that accident had happened. I knew that I wasn’t heeding His call and listening to His many loving warnings, those many gentle and loving prodding’s of the Holy Spirit. The life that I was living was not acceptable in His eyes and things needed to change.
I was so tired of going through the motions of life, I was so tired of trying to figure out what was wrong with me and knew I was missing something. I filled everyday with fun, sports, game nights and movie nights with friends, family (which isn’t bad and is rather a blessing), and late night heart to heart conversations. But no matter what I did, I would often go home after every time feeling so empty. I was so tired of trying to fill that void with things that never were going to truly satisfy or answer the longing of my heart. I longed to be loved. And longed to feel whole.
It took a car accident to further clarify that the path I was on was leading to destruction, but I thank God for it and not letting me go to the grave then. (See “What happens when we die?“) The path that I was on, was in no way going to lead me to eternal life with Him forever. Thank you, Lord for your mercy towards me.
I started writing down my thoughts, questions and prayers to God in a journal. I started truly reading the Bible for the first time. After taking a few weeks to recover physically at home, I went back to Minnesota and there, God, at an extremely fast pace, softened my heart. God brought me to my knees confessing and repenting of all my known sins, He was changing me and the Holy Spirit was helping me to see and understand all of the bitterness, hurt and un-forgiveness I was holding on to. For the first time, I understood God’s love for me. It was no longer simple head knowledge of what Christ had done for me, it had translated to the heart. For the first time, the love of Christ overwhelmed me. I understood how much He cared for me. For the first time, I was able to let go of the many years of kept in hurt, sorrow and pain. For anyone that knows me now, knows that I am quick to shed tears, but for many years I had shoved down so much, crying wasn’t as common for me. This time tears flowed like they never had flowed before.
Over those next few months, He took away my guilt and shame,and gave me a new heart with new desires…that biggest desire being to know God Himself. I wanted to know God, and His love for me through His Son Jesus Christ. And with that came a desire to obey, a desire to read His Word, a desire to let go of and repent of my sinful ways. 2 Corinthians 5:17, “Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.”
Over those months following, as the Lord was teaching me so many new and wonderful truths, and helping me to truly know the love of Jesus towards me in dying for my sins, though I was so unworthy of such a loving act. He was also helping me to further learn about Satan’s deceptions, His ability to “heal” and perform “miracles.” It took many months for me to truly let go and accept that emotion code, along with other forms of therapy that I was receiving were unbiblical, against the Word of God, and actually demonic. I was so tightly wrapped into these things. They gave me “security” and “control” in areas of my life to take place of all the other things I couldn’t fix, control or do anything about, but God was helping me each day by His grace to heal and work through years of hurt that I thought new age would help me through, when it was only Jesus that could heal me and help me truly work through those many things that burdened me. Praise His Name!
And it’s no wonder that no true healing ever would happened through emotion code, for God would have never received the glory, and it would have only made me more dependent on new age, and I would have never continued my search for what I had been always looking for..forgiveness of my sins and peace with God.
Romans 5:1,Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ:”
I am thankful for the memories and feelings that can come back so vividly, because it reminds me of how bad things were, how lost I was, and the true healing power of God. God not only has forgiven me for my sinful actions but He also has taken away the shame and guilt that came with all that I had done, not only in the demonic work I was involved in, but in how I poorly handled many situations in life. He has and is continuing to use it for good. With great confidence in what Jesus Christ has done for me, in shedding His innocent blood on Calvary for me, I can believe His beautiful promise of 1 John 1:9, “If we confess our sins, He is faithful to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” Until I sin again, I can trust that I have been forgiven for those known sins I have confessed and repented of. For they are lost in the sea of forgetfulness. They have been wiped cleaned from my record in heaven. And when I sin again, not only does it grieve me so immensely for the Spirit lives in me..because of the truthfulness of His Word, I know God will so graciously forgive me. He sees how prone we are to fall, how prone we are to take the wrong step here or there, yet He knows His honest children and sees we want nothing more than to serve Him properly. He sees we want to grow into the perfection and holiness He calls us to through His Son. And it is through our often missteps that He teaches us to evermore trust and depend on Him, and seek Him more fervently in study and prayer. What a compassionate Father and Saviour we have. Every time we come to Him in distress of heart when we have sinned against Him, He every time will pick us up and offer His loving hand to guide us quickly back into His loving arms full of mercy, goodness and truth.
“There are those who have known the pardoning love of Christ, and who really desire to be children of God, yet they realize that their character is imperfect, their life faulty, and they are ready to doubt whether their hearts have been renewed by the Holy Spirit. To such I would say, Do not draw back in despair. We shall often have to bow down and weep at the feet of Jesus because of our shortcomings and mistakes; but we are not to be discouraged. Even if we are overcome by the enemy, we are not cast off, not forsaken and rejected of God. No; Christ is at the right hand of God, who also maketh intercession for us. Said the beloved John, “ These things write I unto you, that ye sin not. And if any man sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous.’” And do not forget the words of Christ, “ The Father himself loveth you.” He desires to restore you to himself, to see his own purity and holiness reflected in you. And if you will but yield yourself to him, he that hath begun a good work in you will carry it forward to the day of Jesus Christ. Pray more fervently; believe more fully. As we come to distrust our own power, let us trust the power of our Redeemer, and we shall praise him who is the health of our countenance.
The closer you come to Jesus, the more
faulty you will appear in your own eyes; for your vision will be clearer, and your imperfections will be seen in broad and distinct contrast to his perfect nature. This is evidence that Satan’s delusions have lost their power; that the vivifying influence of the Spirit of God is arousing you.
No deep-seated love for Jesus can dwell in the heart that does not realize its own sinful ness. The soul that is transformed by the grace of Christ will admire his divine character; but if we do not see our own moral deform ity, it is unmistakable evidence that we have not had a view of the beauty and excellence of Christ.
The less we see to esteem in ourselves, the more we shall see to esteem in the infinite pu rity and loveliness of our Saviour. A view of our sinfulness drives us to him who can par don; and when the soul, realizing its helpless ness reaches out after Christ, he will reveal himself in power. The more our sense of need drives us to him and to the word of God, the more exalted views we shall have of his char acter, and the more fully we shall reflect his image.”
I can now with deep thanks, give praise to my Lord, King and Saviour, Jesus Christ for what He did on that cross for me, and for the sins of the whole world. He not only paid the price that I owed but He defeated death itself, by rising from the grave. He graciously and lovingly helped me through those tough times, even when I didn’t know it. And continues to help me through the trials that this life can bring. Everything that was happening was for my good then and now. He was drawing me to His Son as He desires to draw each and everyone of us to Him and I didn’t even realize it. Praise His Name! (Please see “How did I give my life to Jesus?“)
The old me has died. Romans 7:9, “For I was alive without the law once: but when the commandment came, sin revived, and I died.” I have been born again by the grace and power of Jesus Christ. Praise His Mighty Name! It’s no longer I who lives, but Christ who lives in me. Galatians 2:20, “I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.”
Thank you for taking time to read. 🙂
God bless!
Healing Grace of God 